1.31.2003

Quotes from class...
1. "Damn, she's hot!"
2. "Penis Envy: Little boys have one and a little girl wants one"
3. "There's nothing like a good dump"

Those were all said today by Dr. K in Abnormal Psych as we learned about Freud and his crazy, crazy theories. Needless to say, it was an entertaining lecture.

1.27.2003

An eye opening weekend
Ahhhh. (that's a sigh, not a scream) This has really been a great weekend and I think it was so great because I was more dependant on myself for finding things to do. Normally Addie finds the entertainment and I just sort of follow along, however she was gone this weekend. And, with Coulter being gone I'm being forced to branch out and hang out with other people. This is a VERY good thing. I feel like I ignored some people last semester and so now I'm making up for it and having a really good time. This weekend I was able to hang out with Andrea and Lauren and RJ, as well as new people and I really, truly enjoyed myself. I think Addie's friends are great and they are all incredibly interesting people, but it's not really my kind of crowd. I enjoy their company, but I don't always feel like I belong. Another thing I've been thinking about is, "What is my place?" and honestly, "Who am I?" These are really simple questions, but I'm not sure that I know the answer to them right now. I think I feel more comfortable around Andrea and Lauren. With them though, there is the whole sorority girl thing and I'm pretty sure sororities are not for me, but then why do I feel so comfortable and have so much fun with those two and their different groups of friends? Right now I feel like I'm relying on other people to help me figure out who I am and that's not what should be going on.

It's time for a list to sum up everything from the weekend.
1. I need to work on trying to figure out who I really am.
2. I'm very grateful for branching out and happy with the results of a great weekend.
3. Dependancy is a bad thing.
4. I shouldn't take out my frustations on other people...sorry to Addie for acting pissed off all the time. I'm not really mad at her.
5. I think I'm too sensitive, or I worry too much. Something along those lines...I just need to relax.

1.25.2003

Fun Times
If last night was any indication of how the rest of the semester is going to be, I'm not worried one bit. First off, I'm very proud of myself because I independantly found something to do for myself and Andrea. We went to a party on East Campus with RJ and his friend David, but the guys didn't stick around for long. The party was huge and there was a good mixture of people, so I didn't feel overwhelmed by one group like I sometimes do at say, Maneater parties. After the guys left, Andrea found a guy of her own to talk to, and just my luck, he had a friend. Bad news though...the kid was short. I mean like 5'6 short. That just won't work. I could comfortably rest my arm on his shoulders and use him as an arm rest...not cool. Then he started rambling on about the Marines or something, and I lost interest. He was somewhat attractive too, so it's really a shame. Why can't there be more tall guys in the world? Ahhh. Anyways, we ended up at IHOP with these guys at 2AM and they were fun to talk to and so all and all it was a good time. I ended up staying at Andrea's house because Jeff is here and Amy moved her bed and so now it's nicely placed over my room and I don't enjoy what I hear at night. Thanks to Andrea for offering her couch. We had fun. It was like old times last year in 206. We talked before bed like middle school girls and then woke up this morning to the drama of one of her sorority sister's. I must say I enjoyed myself!

I'm debated on whether or not I should be productive today. I really just want to lay around and do nothing. Hummm, decisions, decisions...

1.22.2003

Huge Sigh of Relief
After dealing with perhaps the most helpful person on campus, I discovered this morning that all of my frustration was for no reason at all. My Theatre 44 class wasn't cancelled. I will be able to apply for OT school on time. My schedule isn't as awful as I thought and now I'm one happy MU student! I also signed up for the 1 hour, six week class that meets at 8, but again at 9:30 with the same professor...hummm, I think I'll go at 9:30. Even better...I actually know people in the class. Claire, Greg, Kandice and Luke. How fun is that? Ok, I'm in a great mood now! Off I go to my 12:00. Adios!

Frustrated Again!
No, this is not another "I hate" session, but I'm so frustrated with trying to figure out my schedule right now I could just scream! You either have to get a consent number or try and get an override at this point and I'm just tired of walking around this campus and no one wanting to help you. I think I finally have things figured out. Either Ceramics 130 or Theatre 44 on MWF and then add a 1 hour Management class to bring to total number of hours to 15. (Random combinations, but it works!) That's enough for me and so hopefully all will be well tomorrow and I can stop bitching about everything.

1.21.2003

Second semester starts now!
Yes, I am back here at 1504 for the beginning of another semester. So far the return has been alright. I have branched out and done different things and with only one class at 3:30 to start off the semester tomorrow, things shouldn't be too bad. Since I've been back, Addie and I went this Unity Center church. It was actually quite nice and the people participated in the service and didn't act like they were dragged there. (or is it drug there?...I don't care, it's my blog, I can say what I want). Anyhow, on Sunday we also went runnning on the MKT trail...a whole 2 miles of running folks! I was impressed with myself, so you should be too. The trail was wonderful...even while it was snow covered...and so I can't wait for Spring so I can enjoy it without the cold and snow. Today I basically did nothing except for Yoga at the Unity Center. It's given in their Solar Center (it's like a sunroom) and the best part is it's all based on donation. I really did feel centered and refreshed afterwards and so I think I may incorporate that into my week now too. I'm not to thrilled about my class schedule this week, but I will hopefully fix some of that this week. Until then, good night!

1.15.2003

Frustrated
I hate people who talk down to me. I hate people who try and prove their intelligence to me. I hate people who think they are better and smarter than me. I hate people who don't think I am reliable. I hate people who don't have faith in me. I hate people who seek gratification when gratification isn't worth seeking. I hate people who think the world is out to get them. I hate people who have no patience for other people. I hate people who are always pessimistic I hate people who smoke with the window down when it is freezing cold outside and the ride is only ten minutes long. (That was a little specific, but really, can't you just wait and be considerate of others in the car?) Oh...I hate people who aren't considerate.

I guess that's enough hating for one day. I think I'm just ready to go back to school and get away from my current living arrangement. I'm really not a hateful person, but when one person emcompasses all of these characteristics, you can see how it's a little hard to handle at times.

Looking on the brighter side
I finally got a car. Yes, it's true. I'm really not as excited as I should be because it's not exactly my dream car, but it was cheap and had low miles and so it's mine now. It's a Ford Contour. I realize I should be grateful, but it's just not what I had my heart set on. The good side is that since it was so cheap, I'm putting a CD player in it, and it will definitely be safer to drive to and from CoMo and so that makes my mom happy. Even better, my car (ABBADAB) stays. My brother gets it when he turns 16 this fall. I wasn't sure how I was going to part with that fine piece of work, but now I don't have to!

1.12.2003

Call me crafty!
I give Therese complete credit for my latest hobby...knitting! At first I must say it was a little frustrating because things were going very slow, but I'm getting better and am well on my way to having a hand knit scarf. Right now it looks more like a wash cloth, but just you wait. I'm sure everyone will be jealous.

1.07.2003

I'm beginning to think it's all a lie
My car is a piece of shit and I am supposed to get a new car while I'm home for break. I'm only going to be here for about another week and still no car. I'm starting to think that my mom got my hopes up and now I will be stuck with my wonderful 1989 Honda. My mom talks about cars in the paper, but that's not going to get us anywhere...we actually need to call the phone numbers and go to the dealerships to look at the cars. I'm trying to get the ball rolling, but it feels like I'm just being annoying.

1.06.2003

Staring at a blank screen
I feel like this blog has gotten really boring and for some reason I need to apologize for it. I guess that's strange seeing how in the most selfish of ways this is all just for me. I doubt anyone really cares about what I did tonight or am going to do tomorrow, but one day I just might care what I was doing the night of January 5th. Therese had a friend who studied abroad and kept a journal while he did it and then the next year he would read the journal to see what he had done that very same day a year ago. I think that's a really awesome idea. Not only can you then relive amazing times, but also see how one's life has changed. I guess that's the main purpose of all of this: to serve not only as my outlet, but also as a record for me to look back on in the future.

Same old, same old
Having just said all of that, I'm going to talk about my day. I must say that for a Sunday I was pretty damn productive. After waking up and watching a little TV, my mom and I went to work out. She just joined the club where I worked with Kid's Camp and so she wanted me to go with her while I was home so that she wouldn't look dumb when she has to go by herself. After the workout I showered and then decided to be crafty. My mom got these really ugly picture frames as a gift for Christmas and so I took all the crap that was on them off and then sanded and painted them. I think they are quite nice now. There is one that I like a lot, but the other I may go back and fix tomorrow. After painting I cleaned my bathroom (which really needed it) and balanced my checkbook. (I realize these aren't exciting things, but I haven't balanced my checkbook in a good 4 months so it deserves a section in the blog for today.)

Tonight was also a fairly fun night. We (Tim, Therese, Bobby, Andy and I) went to Damons and ordered appetizers and played trivia. Then we went to Bobby's and watched Road Trip. I finally got to see that movie. I think I was the only person left on earth who hadn't watched it. Anyhow, I must say it was a good time. Tim and his high school friends always crack me up so it's always an entertaining evening.

1.04.2003

Just in case
My winter break hasn't been jam-packed with wild and crazy parties, but that's okay with me. Hanging out with friends has been quite enjoyable and we have discovered a new game. It's Cranium. I strongly suggest it to anyone looking for a good game to play. My mom wanted to get it for me for Christmas, but I wasn't really into games. That is until Therese wanted to buy a new game and Cranium was the lucky winner. But really, it's great fun. It's not just trivia, but pictionary and cherades too. Try it...you just might like it!

1.03.2003

Happy New Year!

In other news...
I don't really have any exciting updates or insightful thoughts. I did want to post so you all knew I was still alive, but other than that all I have for tonight is an e-mail that my dad sent me. Some of it is a little cliche I must say, but there's some good advice too. Read and enjoy!

THE FOLLOWING IS A CHINESE GOOD LUCK TANTRA TOTEM.
ONE.
Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO.
Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their
conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE.
Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR.
When you say, "I love you", mean it.
FIVE.
When you say, "I'm sorry", look the person in the eye.
SIX.
Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN.
Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT.
Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have
much.
NINE.
Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to
live life completely.
TEN.
In disagreements, fight fairly. Please No name calling.
ELEVEN.
Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE.
Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN.
When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask,
"Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN.
Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN.
Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN.
When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
SEVENTEEN.
Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others;
Responsibility
for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN.
Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN.
When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct
it.
TWENTY.
Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice..
TWENTY-ONE.
Spend some time alone.